Stupid people.

Recently I've been thinking a lot about people and how stupid they can be. Stupid to me is a mess of things, most commonly linked with stupid acts people say and do. The other day my friend Beth and I were looking at the dumb laws of Washington State as well as Idaho were she lives. I have to say there's so very interesting things that are against the law. The two that popped out the most to me were I believe you had to tell a cop or something that you were having sex, and if you were having sex in your car the cop couldn't disturb you something like that. My personal favorite because I've done this many times is the licking of a lollypop as an illegal act. Wow I've broken the law numerous times without realizing. 

Another thought following the stupid laws was the idea of saying stupid things on Facebook or other areas where others can see them. Within the past couple of days one person has accused me of being high, insane, a lesbian, as well as questioning my sanity to make correct choices for myself. This person also seems to question the sanity of my friends because they act just like me. Now I believe everyone is entitled to their opinion, but at times opinions should be kept to themselves espically on some place like Facebook where all can see these words and things that are said.

I'm not going to say that I'm perfect, I say stupid things all the time, but I try really hard not to hurt people's feelings or say things publicly  To me a stupid person isn't necessarily the IQ of a person, but rather a person who thinks about their actions before they commit them and understand that words can hurt, and as well as the need to understand that different choices are simply that. Different choices, nothing wrong with that.

I guess a stupid person is a mean hearted, and spirtied person  for not having real reasons for saying the mean things that they unneccessarly.  This same person that insulted me a couple of days ago also claims to think that I'm crazy for being happy that Bin Laden's dead, and claiming I should rot in hell. Hey I admit that if I were a bigger person I would be able to do that, but I'm not. He created so much terror for not only us but the people of his country as well as murdering innocent people. If that makes me a bad person according to her, I'll be the bad person for being happy that someone that caused hardship and death for people is gone. He was like Hilter and the whole world was delighted when he was gone. 
So I guess what I'm saying is with the stupid laws and the stupid people they're always going to be around, but you as a person should try and find a balance of what works for you and what you consider stupid. Keeping in mind of course that it's not always so black and white. However meanness is unexceptionable for stupid people. 

I think I might be tripping.

So to all my followers the plans for my world domination have been declared. If you could tell me how you would like to be involved that would be greatly appreciated. But seriously world domination has been put on hold for the time being and perphase forever. Since November a great deal of things have been changing with me personally and around me, and it has only come to my attention recently exactly the things that I really want. The person I thought I was at nineteen or even twenty two isn't the same. Does time really define who we want to become, or circumstances, or maybe even something above.  What's strange to me and oddly welcoming is the things that I want in my life and or important to me aren't the same as they used to be. This is good, it just proves a little challenging sometimes to process. So much of my life, adult years included I struggled with the sense of I wanted to be in a world that wanted me to be exactly what they believed I should be. No this does not included my parents, my parents always made it very clear that as long as I was happy, safe, and had a steady income, I could basically do whatever I wanted.  However when people are learning about the world they assume that they ( A) either know all the answers, ( B) Don't have any idea or ( C) Try and live the way others want them to.
I used to be guilty of C. I didn't know until recently that the only approval I needed was my own. Every choice that I make for the most part is mine, and I own it.  Ironically though until recently I would freak about the choices that I would make and how they would be perceived, and as a result would make decisions that may or may not have been in the best interest of me. As a result of needing to feel that I pleased most people, I would become insanely hard on myself, and what I expected. As a result sometimes that might have swiped into other aspects or relationships. Everyone knows about the dark periods in my life I don't try and hide the fact that they happened, and sometimes they come rarely, but they come. I try and not focus on those because I feel they've been left behind.
What's been interesting is although being home from school since September have driven me slightly mad sometimes, I wonder what would of happened had God or whatever it was to step in and save me from myself? I don't have the answers to that or any idea, but I believe it would have been clautrospic. My health both mental and physical would have continued to decline greatly. School would have become some monster that I didn't enjoy anymore. Everyone knows that I'm hardcore academic, even though the grades may not show it. I feel like since I've been home that I'm healing from so many things. My journey is far from over.

 Everyday I wake up with the concept running in my mind, I'm alive, I'm loved, wanted, and I could just stop and those feelings wouldn't change. I believe once you learn that someone up above loves you, no matter what, it shines through you, and you radiate happiness in that area which allows us to feel happy with the person he created. You were created for a reason, flaws and all.  However I believe that because not only do i radiate that happiness, I'm deserving of the love that I find all around me. I'm blessed in so many ways, and lately when i think about how lucky I am, I start to cry. Tears of joy, and I don't do that. lol.

Things that I thought were lost, have returned to me, and I feel so happy, alive and full of hope. Everyday is a blessing. I wait for some pitfall from all of this, and rarely does it happen. My life isn't perfect there are things that are challenging, but I feel now that anything worth having is worth fighting for. Not that I didn't believe that before, I didn't take it to heart. The answers are shown to you in time, and without struggle the good isn't found or appreciated as much.

Feelings in every sense have changed, things that I thought would never happen, or feelings that I thought were dominate, returned and for once I'm really glad they didn't. Recently a person has come back into my life, and i really like the opportunity to try again. It's odd though maybe it's the fact that Kistin died and how it lingers with me, or maybe it's the fact that I was so on the dark side that we really see how fragile the life experience and life is. This said new/ old discovery of mine was involved in a car accident a couple of days ago. He was fine, but the whole time, I kept thinking what if he wasn't?  which lead to some interesting discoveries, involving a new lease on old feelings.
Rarely are we as people given a new lease on life, or an understanding of what it means in the important ways, and I got mine. So I guess the new lease entails marriage someday, adventures, friends, and hopefully things that make me happy those are the important things. 

Is Mulit-tasking good for relationships?

  In a world that requires us to always be on the run, have we lost the sense of connection with people simply because our energies are divided between more than one thing?  How does a person continue communication while needing to tackle the countless tasks and desires?  There are several things to consider.  Are you capable of accurately giving both tasks the attention they both need?  Can this be put off? Is this fair to the person on the receiving end?  I know I'm guilty of multi-tasking, a great deal of the time, however when a serious discussion occurs all attention is there's without a doubt. Do people mulit task because the other person on the other end is boring?  Only the person who is mulit tasking knows the answer. For me it depends on the situation. A great deal  of the time I do multi- task, and I'm really quite good at it.  However I believe that some things to do when mulit tasking which I cannot do, where as others can. One must keep in mind that because the person is mulit tasking does not mean they are boring or the person is a jerk. If you can accurately do the task to the full ability that you feel it. However the line proves more challenging with each person. Every person has different ideas of what they consider fair multi tasking and under what circumstances. What I or the person I would date would be different than Sasha down the street. It's all subjective. I trick remains knowing when something works for you and speaking up when something doesn't work for you.  Any key for successful relationships is saying I feel, without accusations. A dear friend of mine told me that, and it's very true. If you accuse your partner of doing something then the outcome is going to turn into a fight something that is not necessarily good.  These words I believe can be the form of communication that is insanely important in any successful relationship Instead of accusing say I feel.  This pharse nine times out of ten should work. I  understand  your multitasking but sometimes I  feel like you're not giving me  your full attention. I would also recommend thinking it over time, and weighing the options like if something was up and important, before talking. But in the end if you feel like your attention is not entirely there's, then say something. If the person in the end does not realize that you are important and are entitled to be happy in every sense that they can do. They may not be worth your time and you should be able to walk away. I believe a partner who can't understand how something makes you feel and wouldn't want you to be happy is worth walking away from. A perfect solution may not be achieved right away, but if you're important to them, than in the long run they will come to terms and understand why something made you feel that way. And hopefully it isn't you being boring which I highly doubt. Relationships work both ways and require constant communication in order for them to be successful. Without communication the relationship is bound to fail, and at worst end up being a one night stand.