I want to see you be brave. Danielle style.

I've spent the past couple of months searching for answers that I thought were my answers, but in all reality they were and are answers for others. Nothing wrong with those answers to the great questions of life, but they weren't and aren't mine. I've always done things in my own way, and my own time, despite what everyone says I forget that. I overcome great adversity, and difficulties, and arrive at the same place, but I do it in my own way. You could say that is true of anyone who wasn't blessed with the easiest lot in life, wither it be financial woes, abuse both emotional, psychological and physical, or like me being disabled. It's something that I choose to keep under wraps for fear that people won't give it the time or understand it, or as when I was a child would judge me for it, and it still occurs at times at places I've worked where some people have judged me for it, but not all, and much like my childhood, I thought I had to keep it wrapped up in a box, like it was some monster, and it was something to be ashamed of, when in all reality, I should be drawing pride from it, and what all I've accomplished despite it, and I will no longer let those who shamed me, have me keep it in the box like it has been for so many years. I have friends who struggle like I do, and they are out about their struggles, so I'm going to no longer pretend that there's something wrong with it. If you know me, you know that I am so much more than something I was born with, you base our friendships or relationships on knowing me, as a person, not anything else.

So I need help sometimes what's the big deal with that? Why can't something be bigger then myself? Why do I have to be afraid of myself and what people will think, when in all reality those who judge me, may of not been able to accomplish all of my successes. I'd rather not share the specifics of it, because it is a very complicated and intensive thing to explain , because that is still something I'd like to keep private, but all I can say is yes, I struggle, I struggle very hard some days, more then I let on, but I keep going, because I'm not ready to quit. I'm not ready to stop dreaming. Without those dreams, I won't have graduated from college, nor have dreams for a Masters, or be able to have one of the best cursive handwriting that I know, or be able to drive a car.  So now I'm looking down the road, and I will admit I have been struggling with what to fill my dreams with since the wedding ended, and I've been dreaming about that for a very long time. So now I will look towards owning the home of my dreams, maybe some day having a family, I think I'd like to adopt at least one kid, and of course I'd still love to save the world, and maybe publish a book a long the way. 

We lie to ourselves and others that we don't struggle, and believe that struggle is wrong, and something to be swept under the rug like it's nothing, but I'd like to move that we start working towards struggle is real, human and not something to be ashamed of. I'm tired of the idea of being like everyone else, because we as humans have the need to conform, conform to what? Someone else's ideas of what is considered correct? Then we're all going to continue living a lie, and hiding under the idea of the perfect person, who doesn't exist.  So I challenge all my friends to be honest about things, wither it be disability, or money. 

Those supposed perfect people who sit there and judge, probably secretly have a huge fault that they've got going on in their lives, but rather judge it in you, because they lack the ability to realize they're the ones with the huge short comings. I will say this for a disclaiming yes, there are some behaviors that are unacceptable, but if you have behaviors that don't hurt yourself or others, and they are judge, then "those" are the people who truly have a short coming. Much like the bullies from when we were kids. So I challenge you to wear and wave your flag high and proud if you have some short comings, just admit it, and those who judge just admit it you lack something for not understand  and just letting people be. So let's stand up for ourselves, and be brave, and take this long along for the ride. 

The one thing I do find without a doubt annoying is to use your short coming as a disability as a reason to excuse a poor social behavior, that isn't about social skills, but rather because you don't take the time to make the effort or follow through. Call it what it is, and don't hid behind it, I sure appreciate honesty, instead of living lies, and miscommunication is different. too so add to your list, if I can find a way around that you can too. Honest and bravery, and for people to stop being stupid are huge, then maybe we can all start being brave and stop trying to save face, for what reason? I'd rather not live a lie anymore, some lies, or hiding can be too big to carry I've lifted that weight and I feel better then I have in a long time.

You can be amazing
You can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug
You can be the outcast
Or be the backlash of somebody's lack of love
Or you can start speaking up
Nothing's gonna hurt you the way that words do
And they settle 'neath your skin
Kept on the inside and no sunlight
Sometimes a shadow wins
But I wonder what would happen if you

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

Everybody's been there, everybody's been stared down
By the enemy
Fallen for the fear and done some disappearing
Bow down to the mighty
Don't run, stop holding your tongue
Maybe there's a way out of the cage where you live
Maybe one of these days you can let the light in
Show me how big your brave is

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

Innocence, your history of silence
Won't do you any good
Did you think it would?
Let your words be anything but empty
Why don't you tell them the truth?

Say what you wanna say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

With what you want to say
And let the words fall out
Honestly I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I wanna see you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
See you be brave

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you

I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you
I just wanna see you