It's hard to believe it's been almost a year since I wrote a blog, that's alarming to me. Have I really gotten that far away from where I was a year ago?
What can I say about 2015, it's been a whirlwind to say the least, a growing experience, full of changes, successes and ultimately changes.
I started the year out in a bad place, because I was convinced that I was nothing without having a job, and was convinced that I had to prove to the world my worth, despite, having legitimate reasons as to why it was difficult.
After awhile I got so sick of being in a dark and twisty place, I stopped being me, and I became what I thought I was supposed to be, someone driven by money and success. I'd forgotten the rest of the story, the dreams, having funny, making the world a better place. I got lost in the shuffle, and went down hill.
I needed closure before I got married and ultimately contacted my ex, and in the end I was so glad that I had moved past him and on to someone loads better, kinder and sweeter even if he still does drive me mad, this is the man I'm supposed to marry, the man who does everything in the entire world for me, and even bribes me.
In March this year I started volunteering at an animal shelter, which made the world of difference, but I had to give that up. About that time I went to a job fair, where ultimately I did find a temporary job, which I liked at the time, but I guess I was so focused on just being happy at the time it didn't matter, because it was giving me a sense of control.
Fast forward to May, when all of the wedding planning and events really started, my wedding dress had arrived and all the alternations were finished, my mom had my convinced for three months that the dress wouldn't fit, yeah it fit just fine, but due to the stress of planning a wedding and working forty hours a week, I think I went a little crazy, but through out it all I found out that I had some of the most amazing people in my world, from family to friends, each and everyone managed to make it a very special time for me my wedding shower ended up being a potluck in the park, with tequila of course, very earthy like me, my bacherelette party in June was going out to eat at Red Robin, drinking way too much, and spending the night at a hotel, and going shopping in the morning. I only wish I didn't have to work for four hours the day before, looking back I should of asked for the day off.
Then came the madness of July and the wedding, somehow it managed to go over with few hitches, there were issues with the bridesmaids dresses, the room issues people telling us they had found out different lodgings, and we scrambled to cover those rooms, almost missing the ferry the day before the wedding, and the cake falling over on the way to the island.
Well the room got fixed and we learned a lot about those people, a new cake was assembled on the island the following morning, things were said and done at the wedding, and true friends were found out all and all.
We changed the honeymoon to go to Montana instead of camping on Orcas Island. Ryan my brother had a baby with his wife in October, here and now the holidays and the end of the year are upon us, and I am looking to put my two weeks notice in at my job, and find something better, the over time has become too much to bare, so here's to changes in the new year, and finding time to exercise.
So here's to the closing of 2015 and I'm about to go out the door drop the letter in the box take a shower and go to bed, and I'm coming home tomorrow to write the letter to give to work in person and give it on Thursday, and walk away in almost two weeks.
Yay for postive changes.
